Chinese paper is finally over! No more chinese after this!! WHOOO~~!!!! In a way, it sucks too.. Like.. won't get to touch chinese for the rest of my life.. =( Anyway, XP planning today.. 80% of the proposal was scrapped out by Mr Lim. TOTAL FAILURE! But we all expected it.. so its ok I think.. Guess we got to start from a little more than a scratch again.. =( 15 days left after today to XP. Just hope everything will turn out fine, everyone will go for both phases and DONNA WILL JOIN US!!!! =)

Tmr is ZP training and lvl run. Will be running 20 rounds lvl 0 again. Hope I can clear it this time! =) ZP training- lvl run followed by 10 grandstands within 10 mins then 4 sets of 5 pull-ups! Yup. Thats all! Shall take it easy first. Wrote down some log stuffs during debriefing. Wanna teach the loggers some stuffs instead of just a few ppl knowing the stuffs then the rest just follow blindly- "The blind leads the blind. But the blind is none other than the blind himself".


~life just sucks without her around..~

I can't stop running..
My legs are just moving on their own..
You were so near,
but for every step I take,
you seem to be getting further away from me..
It is almost time..
The time when I will lose sight of you..
forever..

Life is full of unexpected things. Friends become enemies. Enemies become friends. Friends become couples. Friends become strangers. Who will ever know what happen next? I have been running and running after several things in my life so far.. And I am getting really sick and tired of everything.. Pulling out all my energy to pursue something only to enjoy it in a moment before losing it or perhaps not getting it at all..


2 more days to A level Chinese exam. Parents bought me a new phone yesterday. This Saturday will be another recee trip to Malaysia. Doubt my parents will let me go.. They will start using the new phone as a "weapon" against me.. =(


~Cya in my next life~

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

Alright! Today is actually my birthday. Went to Grandstand early in the morning and played chinese chess on Javis com? hahaha! What a good way to celebrate! =X But anyway, played frisbee after that when suddenly Jian Li, Linh and Marcus called me over and passed me the present that they bought for me.. I am quite touched la.. they bought me a turtle pillow! hahaha! DARN DARN DARN CUTE! haha! HUGGED IT FOR THE WHOLE OF PW! haha!

After that was XP planning.. was quite tired already.. Wanted to sleep but Olivia kept waking me up to see if her slides are perfect or not.. To me, its alright.. But to her, its never perfect.. Wanted to skip XP meeting and go somewhere to play.. But in the end, I chose to stay. ODAC celebrated my birthday. Was very touched by what they did. Thanks to Donna and olivia.


~My wish was...~

Ok! Together is results day..
Lets just say I passed everything except for my econs which was a terrible U grade.. =(
But to look on the brightside of life, I managed to get promoted.. =)

I am really happy for all my friends who stood by me all these time.. Especially Nicole.. I swear.. she is the nicest girl and senior I ever met.. She is concern about my studies and ODAC stuffs.. Give advice every now and then.. Jerome is also a good senior too.. Just abit.. "gay" sometimes? haha! =)

The days are going to be super tough from now onwards.. I have to stop thinking about her.. Each time I walked past a seed, I would just stop and think for a damn long time.. Each time I take out my wallet.. I would be tempted to open the secret compartment.. Each time I see her.. I would just want to shower her with love and care again.. But I know I can't..

Saw Mr. Lim letter.. He wanted Mau Mau and I to try lvl 1 now.. But I decided to follow wei jie advice and pass lvl 0 comfortably first.. Aiming to be at lvl 2 by next year.. =/


~Crying like mad now..~

Ok. Tmr is results day otherwise known as D-day. Have not been thinking about for the past few days. More concerned about other stuffs. Just saw the ppt that Andrea done. Can tell she is really serious about the PW by her work. Everything was done so fast and efficient. Feel bad just by looking at one slide. Mr. Lim bombed us again for XP planning with so many so many questions. Wanted to ask her if she wants to come try out the train with me, but decided not to. =(

Ran lvl run today with my old shoe. Somehow, it feels great to wear my old shoe although it is so weared out. =) Ran 10 rounds and my breath was still constant. Marcus and John ran with me for the 15th lap. Timing was 22.27 if I remembered correctly. Wanted to just stop although I was not really that tired, but I decided to just keep on running another 5 laps for her. Don't ask me why, but she just came floating to my mind so I jsut kept running. In the end, 20 laps-29.55. Cleared Mr.Lim's criteria. How I wish I could have cleared it on the qualifying round and not waste my 30 bucks.. =( Going to run lvl 0 again before family run tomorrow..

Yes, I am trying my very best to forget.. I am trying.. My body is wearing out.. My ming is wearing out.. when will this ever end..

~you'll always be my baby~

Yesterday was the qualification for the REAL run. Maurice passed it. Congrats! =)

I failed.. by 40 seconds.. It really sucks.. I was like trying my best.. giving it my best shot.. running for everyone in ODAC especially her.. But I still failed.. =(
The moon was shining so brightly up in the sky.. It was so near to us and so beautiful as you look from the grandstand.. But it just wasn't the right time.. =(

Yup. I have crossed the line. I can continue to run for my entire lifetime. But I chose to stop. I realised that it is meaningless to continue on if I am running for something so beautiful but yet impossible to achieve.. There was always some obstacles on the track.. I dodged and run through them all.. The run was tough.. yet sweet at times.. But this time.. There is one huge boulder sitting there right in front of me.. I can't move on.. Thats the end.. Goodbye.. thanks for the memories..



~Just keep running?~

Please grant my team and I strength to clear the level 0, 20 rounds tomorrow and not let her down.

Please let all my dearest buddies and friends pass their promos in their JC life and fufill the promise that the both of us made to each other.

Please help guide her through all the obstacles.

Please be there to hold her when I am much too far away..


This saturday is prayer for peace day at St.Pats. Those who wanna come to pray for peace whether its for the world or for your loved ones, please do.

Promos results are coming out next week..
Heard that a lot and a lot of people fail GP.. Guess I have to go Jason's school after all.. I don't wanna waste one year of my life at all.. I don't want to break our promise.. =(

BODY IS SUPER TIRED NOW~~~!!! ARHHH!!!

REAL RUN is coming up soon.. I got to pass Mr Lim criteria-20 rounds lvl 0. It really sound quite difficult since I have not been running lvl 0 for very long.. Friday was 10K run and it was quite tiring.. Wanted so badly to give up at the 20 plus round but I just kept telling myself to push on.. In the end, I made it and am proud of myself although I did not make it on time. Timing was 50.27, my new PB for 10k.. =)

Saturday was swimming. Woke up late!!! Supposed to meet at 7 but I woke up at 6.45am!!! ARHH!!! Supposed to give Jin Shi a wake-up call at 4.30.. =( So, yeah.. I caused her to be late as well.. Swam for like 40 plus laps before going to relax ourselves at the mushroom.. MICHELLE WANTED TO GO INTO THE BOYS TOILET! hahahaa! Anyway, we went to Velocity after that to collect our race pack before heading for lunch and home sweet home.. =)

Wanted to go Sentosa, but in the end, decided to stay and practice for jamming. Tilak suddenly tell me he wanna cancel jamming since he is not prepared. I was not prepared as well so I agreed with him. I know Jason and KB would be sad or angry since they wanted to go jamming so badly after Promos. But seriously, I don't know the strumming pattern and not really so pro like them, it would just be a waste of money to go there.

I meant every word that I said..

~I promise I would give you a better answer..~

PROMOS ARE OVER~~!!!!!

Yup. Chem was a disaster.. just totally screwed.. math.. lets just say I can pass.. which was a good thing..

Jamming this Sunday. Trying to find songs and practice it.. Hope everything goes well..

Tried running for lvl 0 today.. it totally sucks.. 7 rounds and I am down.. totally down.. hip bone hurts like mad.. Wanna go swimming tmr to regain my stamina but just got an sms that Wei Jie wants us to run 10k early in the morning tmr.. man.. it just sucks.. =(


I really care for her..
I do..
cherish her..
for the rest of my life..


~Jamming, here I come~

"There are many things which catches our eyes, but there are only a few which catches our heart. Pursue them!"

That was the last line of Mr Lim's notice on the board..
At that time, I was thinking to myself a lot of stuffs..
My GP is screwed, my bio is screwed, my chinese is screwed..
My whole life is just so upside down now..
I don't even know what did I ever do wrong to deserve this..

ODAC, is no longer like the CCA I used to feel at home.. It is now full of saddness and resentment.. I got nothing much to say other than that...

Future,
what exactly is the future? Nobody will ever know..
Some say our destiny has already been decided, some say we make our own destiny.
Who will ever know? I may die the next time I step out of my house..
Anger, resentment, saddness, happiness are all part and parcels of our lives. Our lives will never be perfect thanks to a part of us-greed. We want this, we want that. Can life ever be perfect? To me, life would be just as perfect as how we look at it. So long as we not take things for granted, seizing each day that we have, life would definitely be perfect. Strange huh? Me talk until so chim, but still don't practice what I preach. It is pretty hard to change one's personality. But I got to try.. to look on the brightside of all aspects of life..

This is to those who I have spoken:
Lets all change, and be happy people! Life is not about achieiving what we want right? It is all about taking one step at a time and treasuring whatever we have now! =)



~Potest Qui Vult~

http://edmund-odac.blogspot.com

Hello!
The name is Edmund
23/10/1991
Michaelian, Patrician, CJCian, ODACER! =)
Likes to hang around with good buddies and joke around for the whole day
Miss the old times..

HANG OUT WITH BUDDIES AND PARTY ALL DAY LONG!
Set up La Frenz!
Score well for As!
Actually nothing much.. So long happy everyday can already..

Anne
Charmaine(ODAC)
Cheryl!
Chu xian
Cynthia(ODAC)
Daryl Ong
David
Deborah(ODAC)
Desmond
Eileen
Ezza
Grace/ Xiao Mei
Heidi
Hwa Xiong A.K.A WASH!
Jason
Jia Min
Jian Li(ODAC)
Jin Yi
KRISTINE=)
Marcus
Mark
Maurice(ODAC)
Michael
Sandra
Sarah(ODAC)
Sharon/ Da Jie
Sook Leng
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Wei Wen
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